absolutely love your raw honesty. we all have these feelings.

I have had a youtube channel for 3 years.. i barely have 668 subs.. I had a friend start a channel same time as me and he now has 70K.. he's a great guy, but i think his channel is so boring and then i get into the rabbit hole of i just suck at youtube.. and then i have to be happy for him and then i constantly check my stats there too..

anyway.. it is frustrating all around. So now i spend less time on youtube and more time here.. so now my videos suck and they are getting better views.. i do not get it.

I would die for a french Croissant FYI