almost my entire adult life until around mid 30s i was my own worst enemy. If life was good, i would make sure it would not be good for long. It took me lots of work, and therapy to get to the other side. Now when i see it happening, I stop regroup and get intune to see why am i doing this. I felt myself doing it here on medium, and had to take some time off, regroup and put a stop to it.

Now it is so easy to spot in others, and myself, but it took maybe 8 years to get to that point.