I completely relate. When I get too sucked up in numbers, and progress I also detach. I think it is one of the reasons I choose to never live in a country where I need a lot of money.

I will become a psychotically obsessed person, and I dont like when I get like that. Make good sound investments (financially) and dont burn out. Sometimes not listening to your intuition can lead to burnout, in my experience.

I think as you continue to do something that you enjoy, and go about it with a calculated plan you will be fine. Plus once you set into motion a more of a ¨semi passive¨ income stream, like your youtube you will feel less pressure when you start earning more. You will be able to take a breath, and re center.

I can see exactly your path, and this article is not a surprise to me.. You can always reach out anytime you need to vent!