I have always been raised to be aware of what I spend my money on and why. I lost that outlook for a time, and it was the time i was most stressed about money.
Now living abroad I only spend on what I absolutely need. I have a better relationship with money, but it is still a worry, as my income is significantly lower than when i had a traditional job. I am aware of every cent I earn, and know where it goes, I am also grateful that I can earn online every little bit helps.
Happy belated birthday! I have never liked to go out on my birthday, i would always prefer to stay home and bake a cake out of scratch.. as when i was a kid my mother would always make us a cake, we never ate out.. the food at home is always better!