I quit my job and traveled the world; why was I accused of running?
Because I chose differently does not mean that I was running away; maybe I was running towards life.
Everyone assumes that when you leave a successful 15-year career because you want to. That you have lost your marbles, or you were running. When I decided to uproot my life and ultimately do a complete 180, people thought I was crazy.
Naturally, not one person thought I decided to change my world because I wanted an adventure. Everyone in my circle secretly wanted to know why are you running?
Is it from something?
I even had people tell me running is not the answer. First of all, I was not running.
Ok, maybe I was running, but not how everyone thought.
I was running toward life; I was running toward adventure; I was running toward new experiences.
They thought I was running away from life. Except they did not know why; in the eyes of most, I had it all; I made it. I had one of the best jobs as a nurse; I worked at the best hospital in LA, the best in the west.
I was not unhappy with my external situation. I looked terrific on paper, and no one understood why I was single and childless.
Except I wanted more, I was bored.
I remember sitting in LA traffic crying and thinking there has to be more to life than sitting here in traffic eating celery and peanut butter out of a jar because it’s late, I worked all day, and all I want to do is sleep.
I used to walk into work and think, this is it? Some day’s I would sit and watch the team do rounds and think, why do they all look like hollow vessels of humans.
They were on repeat; I felt like I was living in an episode of groundhogs day, driving myself crazy. I was wondering, wow, maybe today it will be different.