oh wow i have been in relationships like this more times than i want to realize. I always felt like i was expected to be the "pretty but dumb" partner, and i was suppose to look pretty, and agree with everything people said, oh and praise my husband, boyfriend .. i refused. I became the crazy one.. and then i cracked.. and then did as you did.. rebirth!

So happy to see you have the formula and that you are freely expressing yourself now.. i know it is a work in progres, but aren't we all!!!