Please don’t take away my opportunity to say no

Saying no can be liberating

Northern California sunsets

I am the queen of the homebodies. If not the queen, at least in the running, maybe first runner up.

I have always enjoyed my alone time. I would rather be with myself than out with people that I either do not know or do not care to get to know.

Yet with this said, I still want the opportunity to say no.

I want to have all the options of what is possible for my night and choose on my own. If you decided for me and I find out that it was because you “know I don’t like that kind of event,” I am hurt.

I go from totally relaxed, calm, and collected to pissed within seconds when I feel left out. Then within another 5 minutes, I return to normal.

I have been doing a ton of internal work over the past five years, and when I started, trust me, I was a train wreck. Sometimes when I get upset over such minute details, I think, was the work for nothing?

My friend always tells me as soon as you are not attached to the outcome is when you are truly free. In my intellectual mind, I understand this, and it is so easy to do alone.

When I was single and living my life on my terms, it was a breeze, or so I thought. In…