Wow.. I can not even begin to express words here. First 9 kids, wow.. you are a rock star! I would have gone insane.. I have to believe as the very last line you wrote, wasn't a failure but precisely what needed to happen- THIS, i believe 100%.

Your tenacity and courage is admirable and the whole article i was on an emotional roller coaster. I can not imagine what you have been through. Just keep going, and moving forward.