Wow this was amazing, i love how you almost like a tree.. took the story from the outside in.. It is so true that we must protect our hearts, while yet still allow the sap to flow..
I think a lot of other people, especially us who tend to be more sensitive to the world's energies had a rough jan/feb.. I know i felt as you did.. so many of the same feelings, and then one day I woke up and let go of the "control" or false sense of control i had and let go of it.. I now feel a light airy presence and know that we have no control, it is all up to a greater power. We can only pray, and be present and pay attention to the promptings.. as you have stated.
There is so much going on in the world, and you are a bit closer than those of us oceans away, but we can pray, and trust.
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